First things first: I will not be serving an LDS mission any time soon. I have had actually quite a few people ask me if I have thought about serving a mission in the last year. If you are one of those people who have asked me, I still love you, this post is nothing against you. I understand you are just wanting to know and that is completely fine. :) When President Monson announced the age change for the missionaries in October 2012, the first thing I thought and felt was, "oh my word I want to serve a mission!" And I thought about it. I even went and talked with my bishop about it. I prayed and prayed my little heart out wondering if I should be serving a mission. The answer I received was very clear and I didn't doubt it for a minute. I was not to be serving a mission at this time. Then over the course of the next year, I found myself on a "mission" of my own. I came to Germany and discovered why I was not supposed to be called on a mission. The Lord sent me where He needed me and I couldn't be happier.
Just because I will not be going on a mission doesn't mean that I don't love the gospel and the Lord more than anything, because I do. The gospel, Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are my rock. I would NEVER be in Germany on this amazing adventure if they weren't. Being able to go to church each week is part of the reason I was able to stay here. If I didn't have that little piece of home with me, I probably would have never survived. My ward has become my family. They were so accepting and loving to me the first week I went to church and even more and more each week. It is going to be hard to say goodbye to a lot of them.
Heavenly Father has become my best friend. I have cried more tears then I thought I could cry to Him in this last year. I have vented and ranted about everything to Him. And He is ALWAYS there. After I talk to Him, I feel SO much better. It is like He just wraps me in His arms and everything feels like it will be okay. I know He is there and I KNOW that He will always be there. And I am so thankful for that.
There have also been moments that I have been able to truly use the Atonement. It is absolutely incredible to feel like the things you did are so wrong and they drag you down and down. And then you let Him in and you take the Atonement and allow it to heal you. Or even when you feel sad, disappointed, frustrated, stressed, heartbroken, etc. The list goes on and on. You can just use the power of the Atonement and it is all somehow okay. It is so nice to know that someone has felt EXACTLY how I feel at times. I love having the Atonement in my life. And I am so unbelievably grateful and overwhelmed that Christ did that for me. I love Him more and more everyday.
The next subject is more of a super happy moment and I am just so grateful!!! I have NO doubt in my mind that I was supposed to come to Germany this year. Everything before I came just wasn't working out and I felt like something was missing. And then I felt I was supposed to come to Germany and I knew that if I did that, I would be blessed for following the Lord.... and I have been. Immensely. Everything is working out! I get to go back to school in a month today. I am so excited for that. I was really worried that I wasn't going to be able to work at the elementary school when I get back. I not only really wanted to, because I LOVED it, but I had worked out my entire school schedule to work at the elementary school. It would also look great on my future resume. :) And I found out this last week that I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am SOOOO excited!!!! I really cannot get over how much the Lord is blessing me!!!! So in a few weeks I will be Miss Hammer again and I am just so excited. :D
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| I also REALLY need a haircut. Hah. :) LIFE IS GOOD!!! |
Guys, follow the Lord. He REALLY does have a plan for each and everyone of us. He loves us so much and He will never, ever leave us alone. I know that times can seem hard and that you will get frustrated, but remember to keep your head held high.
Love-
Kasey :)
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