Realizations.

What is the world. How is it already July!?  I do not understand how the time is passing so fast. I may cry. Either from excitement or from sadness I haven't decided which yet. Probably both. I cannot believe I will be home in less than six months. It feels like I just got here! As Luka says... "I think you have only been here for a week! Not six MONTHS!" I love that boy.

As the title says I had some realizations this week. Number one) I have less than six months left. I honestly can't believe it. Number 2) Our family is going to Montenegro in a month. And I am SO excited! I get to have two weeks to go explore Munich while the mom and kids go for the first two weeks of August. And then the dad and I are going to be driving there in the middle of August. It will take 15 HOURS. Longest period of time that I will be in a vehicle at once. But at least it is with Zeljko. He usually makes things fun. Haha. Number 3) I have to start worrying about being a grown up again.... I have school to look forward to and actual work. Although if I get a job at the elementary school again it won't seem like work. So I am hoping that happens! Number 4) My little brother and best friend leaves on his mission in a week!!! I am slightly freaking out because I don't want him to go but I am so excited for him and so proud of him!!! Number 5) I love the gospel more and more everyday. And number 6) I need a haircut.

Now to expound on each item. I really feel like I should not be saying that I only have six months left. It makes me sad, happy, nervous and way excited. I am sad because I love this family as much as my family and having to leave another family behind, this time I don't know how long for, is going to kill me. I am already planning on visiting them as much as I possibly can. Which probably won't be that often because it is too expensive to come over here all the time. So I am going to start saving! Hah. This family has done so much for me in just the short time we have been together. I have learned and grown so much in these last six months and I can't wait to see what else happens in the next six months. I love each and everyone of them for their own reasons. Zeljko reminds me so much of my own father that it makes me laugh. He is always doing random things like my dad and he likes the same things that my dad likes. It is funny. The mom is amazing. She is such a great example to me. The things that she does for this family and for her work are incredible. She is the greatest friend that I have over here. We talk about everything and I feel so comfortable around her. It is nice to have someone away from my own mother to talk to.

The boys. They are hilarious. There is no other way to describe them. They are just the best kids and I feel so blessed to be here with them. It makes me sad knowing that I won't be with them for very much longer but it just makes me want to be the best I can be and to have the most experiences I can with them before I have to leave them.

And the girls. I spend the most time with those two and I just love them. I feel as though they are my little sisters I never had. :) I love listening to Doro as she tries speaking to me in English. And I am in love with little Maria. She has started rolling over ALL the time and she is constantly just scooting herself in circles. Haha. I love her so much. I gave her a bath the other day and it was a lot of fun. We love going on walks. I just love them. It makes me sad knowing that Maria won't remember our time together but she will know who I am as I will keep in contact with them always. She can think of me as her aunt I have decided. Hahah. They all can.

I am SO excited for Montenegro. It will be so fun to go on vacation with the family. I am also really excited for the two weeks I will have to go exploring around. It will be fun to get out and see Munich and just have a bit of time for myself. I am not really looking forward to the drive to Montenegro but it should go well as I love Zeljko and it will give us time to get to know each other REALLY well. Ha. It will be fun.... hopefully.

I am already having to start worrying about school. How to pay for it, what classes I need to sign up for, and a whole bunch of other things have come up because I have taken time off. But it will all be okay. I know that I was supposed to come here and because I was supposed to come, I know that He will make everything okay. I am actually SO excited to get back to school. I want to get my degree as soon as I possibly can so I can finally start teaching and have my own classroom! I am so excited for my mom as she got a teaching job finally and will start teaching fifth grade in August. She is so very excited and nervous as she will be doing everything herself. She is going to be an awesome teacher. :) I am hoping that when I get back that I will be able to get a job at the elementary school again. I loved working there, it didn't seem like work because I loved it so much. And it gives me great experience for my future jobs! So keep your fingers crossed for me that I can work there again!

I am so nervous for my brother to leave. I know that he will be in the Lord's hands and that everything that happens is for a reason. He is going to be an amazing missionary. I can't believe my little brother is going on a mission already. It will be super hard for me as we won't see each other for two and a half years, but it will go fast. I love him so much and I am so grateful he is my best friend. Madagascar is lucky to get him. It will be the best experience for him and I can't wait for all of his stories!

I LOVE the gospel! I was finally able to go back to church this last Sunday. I have been travelling and my way there is all messed up so it has been awhile since I have been but it was SO amazing to go back. I almost started crying as I got there because I felt so home and complete. It was the weirdest feeling and I can't explain it to you but just know that I know without a doubt that it is true. I am so proud and happy to be a part of the gospel. I know Heavenly Father has a plan for me, as I am here in Germany... haha. And I know He has a plan for everyone of you! He will never leave us alone. He loves us too much. My faith in Him has grown so much since I have been here. There isn't a day that goes by where I am not grateful for my love for the gospel and for being a part of it. Nothing in this world will ever change the way I feel about my love for Him and the gospel. :)

And last but not least... I need a haircut so badly. Haha. In case you all wanted to know.

Well I love you all so much! I can't believe how fast time is going! I hope you are all having a wonderful summer vacation and getting things done! I hope you are keeping your head held high at all times. It makes things go faster! :)

Love always
-Kasey :)