"I'll Go Where You Want Me to Go"

Well hey everyone! I feel like I haven't written a blog post in FOREVER and for all of you that follow me, I apologize. Life has been crazy lately! Literally crazy. I got home from school at the beginning of May and a week later I was working at Cafe Zupas. It was fun at first but then I didn't like it very much and I quit in August to start working at Orchard Elementary a couple of weeks later! I LOVE it!!! SO MUCH! There is nothing more that I love doing than being with kids. It is one of the greatest joys in my life.

I am working there as an aid. I work mainly in the fifth grade and it is so fun. I love how fast the kids and I have bonded and gotten to know each other. They make me so happy and I feel so loved everyday when I go to work. I am also one of the kindergarten specialties teachers. There is the art teacher and then I do everything else with them. I am over P.E., computers, and music. It is SO fun! I love it. I only get to teach them on Mondays but that hour I have with them is one of the greatest hours of my life. They are so funny and I just love how innocent and cute they are. The questions that they ask, and the things that they do are hilarious. I love it when I think that the activity I have planned for that day isn't going to be very fun, and it ends up being one of the greatest activities ever. Watching their little faces light up when we get to have fun together is seriously so great. Today for example was our first music lesson. We went into the music room and played, "Guess That Tune" for a little while and then we started working on our song for our mini concert. Watching them play with the instruments, (more like smack them together,) was probably the most entertaining thing of my week. It was so funny. I love them!

Some of you have asked me if I am going to school right now and I am not. My financial aid ended up not going through this semester so I am not able to attend school. But it is okay. I am able to be home and work for a few hours a day. And since my mom is working full time this year, I am able to help out at home more which is a great experience for me. I was angry at first when my financial aid did not go through. I really wanted to go to school to finish up my general eds but I wasn't able to. I didn't know what I was going to do this semester as everyone I knew had work and school and I was just working. But it ended up being a good thing... I was talking to one of my friends about getting another job and she brought up the fact that I could get another job and be a part time nanny. Before she got married she had signed up for a website and was contacted by a family in Utah to be a nanny and she had so much fun with it. So I started thinking about that. I thought that if I could get an afternoon nanny or babysitting job to help earn a little more money it would be great, and I would have more things to keep me busy. So I went and signed up for this site. And the next thing I knew I had some families interested in me. But none of them were in Utah. Oh no, they were all out of the US. I had some from Turkey, Germany and London. I immediately turned most of them down because I wasn't looking for something away from home. I loved working at the elementary school and I didn't want to leave it. 

But for some reason one of the families in Germany kept coming back to my mind and I couldn't forget about it. So I messaged them back and I started talking to the mom. We got to know one another a little better and I was starting to feel really good about them. I started praying almost immediately after I messaged them back asking what I was supposed to be doing. I asked if I was supposed to go to Germany and be their nanny. I had no idea what was going to happen. Over the next three weeks I kept everything between the Lord and I, except for telling a couple of close people. I prayed like crazy wanting, needing to know if the Lord wanted me to go. I wanted to go. It seemed like the perfect thing. It was in Germany, I would live with this cute family, I would travel with them, I would be able to learn German and many other things that I would be able to do. But I didn't know if I was supposed to go or not. 

And then the General Relief Society broadcast happened. I had been praying and thinking about this for the past three and a half weeks and I still didn't feel like I had an answer. But when we sang, "I'll Go Where You Want Me to Go", I knew right then that I was going to Germany. I didn't get a "yes" or "no" answer from Heavenly Father. I got a, "it is your choice and I support you either way" answer. I wasn't, I am not going to pass this up. It would be crazy to pass this up and with how good I feel about it, I can't turn it down now. 

I AM GOING TO GERMANY. This is crazy and a completely different change in my life but it is happening and I couldn't feel better about it. I am so excited and I can't believe this is happening. I never, NEVER saw myself on this path. This just proves that Heavenly Father has a plan and we have NO idea what it is. And it can definitely take us off guard. 

The family I am going to be living with, my "adopted family", is not LDS and I know that I am going to have a chance to have a missionary experience. Which is crazy right there because I have felt that I don't need to go on a mission right now. Well, I think I know why now. I am going to Germany, knowing very little about it, knowing that I am terrified, knowing I will be so far away from my family, knowing I will be on my own, knowing I know that this gospel is true, knowing that Heavenly Father knows what is in store for me in Germany, knowing that I am leaving everything I know and love behind, and knowing that I couldn't be more excited to go be a nanny and to go learn a new culture. My life has taken a turn that I never, ever expected would happen and I know that Heavenly Father is behind it and I am so excited!!! 

He is there, waiting for you to ask for help, waiting for you to be ready for Him to help you. I know that without a doubt in my mind. I would not be going to Germany if I did not know that He is going to be there very step of the way for me. Thanks for reading and I promise that there are going to be many more updates as I go through this journey! I am going to keep my head held high even though this is a whole new experience for me!

I love you all!!!

-Kasey :)

"It may not be on the mountain's height, 
Or over the stormy sea;
It may not be at the battle's front, 
My Lord will have need of me;
But if by a still, small voice He calls, 
I'll answer, dear Lord, with my hand in Thine,
I'll go where You want me to go.

I'll go where You want me to go, dear Lord, 
O'er mountain, or plain, or sea;
I'll say what You want me to say, dear Lord, 
I'll be what You want me to be.

Perhaps today there are loving words
Which Jesus would have me speak;
There may be now in the paths of sin,
Some wand'rer whom I should seek;
O Savior, if Thou wilt be my guide, 
Though dark and rugged the way,
My voice shall echo Thy message sweet, 
I'll say what You want me to say.

I'll go where You want me to go, dear Lord, 
O'er mountain, or plain, or sea;
I'll say what You want me to say, dear Lord,
I'll be what You want me to be.

There's surely somewhere a lowly place, 
In earth's harvest fields so white,
Where I may labor through life's short day,
For Jesus the Crucified;
So trusting my all to Thy tender care,
And knowing Thou lovest me,
I'll do Thy will with a heart sincere,
I'll be what You want me to be.

I'll go where You want me to go, dear Lord,
O'er mountain, or land, or sea;
I'll say what You want me to say, dear Lord, 
I'll be what You want me to be."

Hymn 270